🌦 As @meggangrubb would say, “There is blue beyond the clouds”. I have learned that it is also important for me to share some of my dark experiences in order to hopefully reach even one other person and to show that it does get better. The image on the left was a year ago and I was honestly shocked when I saw it. It wasn’t all about my drastic appearance change, however. I saw it in my eyes. I remembered how lost I had felt and the constant thought of “This is it? Is this how my life is going to be?”...
I was a broken girl who felt the NEED to drown out my demons with alcohol. I was desperate to impress anyone with makeup and skimpy clothes and I thought that bleaching my already blonde hair would erase the girl that I had used to be. I made many mistakes and was acting like someone who I definitely was not. Desperate for attention. Desperate for affection. My heart breaks for that girl. I NEED everyone to see how much one life can change even in a year. I have found several lives within a year.
I found what it feels like for someone to actually slur me in a relationship. Someone who makes me feel like the only woman in every room and someone who compliments who I am rather than someone who just keeps me around.
I found love for the gym, a place where I can constantly mentally and physically challenge myself. A place where I feel I can help others as well as myself.
Then I also found a love for myself. I stopped trying to be someone else. I have embraced my unique ability to be unstylish and my socially awkward personality and I have learned to love my differences and body. ☀️ Don’t give up. You will find yourself and everything will fall into place.
It’s Monday 🔥🔥 Let’s start fresh and kick ass 🍑🍑 Starting my week off with a killer upper body workout at the gym 👏🏽👏🏽 It’s going to be a good week 😍💪 @gymshark
44 7203 hours ago
Bringing a bit of sunshine to your Monday 🌞🌻✨
Today may be a grey, miserable day, but just remember that it’s a new week with a fresh new set of goals, opportunities and challenges for you to smash! Have a great week my lovelies 💛
15 144an hour ago
Don’t like these super close up selfies but someone was in the way of my usual mirror AGAIN!!🤨
Today is usually a rest day (well...a work day) but I have the week off..the joys of working for NHS🏥and getting what works out as pretty much 8 weeks holiday a year!!😁
So obvs I had to go and do an extra session💪🏻...decided to train back & shoulders...not 2 body parts I usually train together but worked pretty well👌🏻
Day 3 😂 of my cut...and i’m still eating a fair amount just being more conscious of extra snacks i’d usually have that aren’t needed.
Hope you all have a great start to the week😘
9 101an hour ago
HAPPY MONDAY FRENZZ☀️ “Sometimes the difference between a terrible day and a pretty good day is finding one small, stupid thing to be nerdily excited about. Even (especially) if no one else cares or gets it” 🌈
Leaving u with one of my fave quotes because I LOVE QUOTES👻 (too cringe?? NEVER!! not cringe enough) 🤪 heh he
Also: OBSESSED with these leggings from @beaybl, Use code ‘FIONA’ for 10% off🍉
(I wear an XS which is my usual size in leggings)