Cruisey little 3.6km swim done ✅ and it felt good! I haven’t had consistency with my swimming for close to a month now, and I had all the old anxiety about being back in the water with two swims planned this week. Turns out I can still swim, and I didn’t drown 🤦🏻♀️ Swimming for me is one of those things that I dread doing until the second I’m in the water. Once I am in, I love it. So today I happily played mermaid 🧜🏻♀️ and put some km under my belt ... this week is the week of finding my groove again and so far I’m doing just that 🙌🏻
Sometimes all you need to clear the head is a good run 🏃♀️ as I ran today I realised, other than on an event day, I don’t ever just ‘run’ in tri shorts. I wear them to train for ROTB but have always been too self conscious to wear them, or any other short shorts for that matter, when I just ‘run’. Having always seen my legs as too ‘fat’ for them I stuck to tights to save myself the embarrassment of wearing something that showed my legs off in public. Today I conquered that fear in the comfort of my own home... because it’s a billion degrees today... and it felt good. I felt strong and fit... and not once did I care how my legs may have looked 🤷🏻♀️ in fact looking down at my feet, I am grateful. For all the doctors and surgeons that have had their part in ensuring I can run at all. For medical advances and research that have gotten me where I am. For all the allied health professionals that continue to work with me to strengthen my ankle. For a coach that believes I can do it and adapts my program accordingly. For the ability to show my kids that you can do anything no matter where you’ve come from, and to be proud of the body you have no matter what shape or size you are. Slowly but surely I’m conquering those body image demons, and proving to myself I CAN do this @ironmantri thing 😉 and most of all, for that, I am grateful.
@hotwtri well what can I say? Another year and I'm even more in love with you!
It is every little detail down to the zooper doopers at the finish line and the way everyone gets behind the triathlon and everyone who gives it a crack.
Thank you to my coach Lee Wilson who got me more than what I wanted. I wanted a 10 minute PB and ended up with 11!!! I took time off all three legs for new PBs on swimming, riding and running there which I wasn't sure was going to happen between dropping a water bottle on the ride and going back for it and the headwind home for the last 10km. It made me think my transition to run was going to be painful. Turned out to be perfectly a-okay!! Thanks also to @hanixtro and @tribabes for helping me get my swim back and lose the anxiety I had developed recently. A big goal for this race was to feel confident in the water, getting some speed back meant that I was back in the mid pack and had to be okay with arms and legs and bodies all over me whilst in the open water. It was nice to be back in a place where mentally this didn't ruffle my feathers and I kept on swimming.
The biggest thanks to Tim, my mum and @b_holmes88 who dealt with my pre race nerves and the pressure I had placed on myself.
You know I'll be back again next year!
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Being my own Monday Motivation today! First photo is DEC 2017 -> NOW ... swipe for NOV 2018 -> NOW. Crazy to see the changes my body has had even in the short timeframe since Noosa Tri! And yet ... the scales since November haven’t budged 🤷🏻♀️ I have been ummimg and ahhing about whether to share these ... but here they are! so ladies ... throw out those scales cause they’re zero reflection of your health and fitness! I’m fitter now than I ever have been ... I kick goals every single week that I never thought I could. I am stronger every single day! Love yourself and find your happy, and you will be amazed at what can happen. **disclaimer: yeah I know my floor is messy 😂 I’m amidst decluttering and packing my house up 🤦🏻♀️ Using this today to reflect on how far I’ve come 💜 and refocus on what’s ahead!
Today’s endurance ride was done a little differently ... I had 4.5 hours planned ... and even though it was forecast to be sunny did any of us actually believe it would happen? After a bit of a drive around town the last few days, it was noticeable there is still some debris on the road, potholes that haven’t been filled yet (it’s been SO wet all week even after the initial flood event..), some road closures... so I decided that if today was indeed sunny I was still going to get this done on my kickr. Riding 4.5 hours on my own, with probably every person in Townsville out because we finally have sun... not my idea of a good time. After my last failed long ride I really just wanted today to happen without any interruptions🤦🏻♀️ so I had a lazy sleep in, jumped up, and got this done. Cruised in zone 2 as per coaches instructions, and then jumped off for a 10min ROTB. With all the variables in training in the last week it’s nice to have picked up some consistency again. In the last few days I had a bit of a freak out, told my coach I was panicking about the run leg (to which she replied she doesn’t care if I walk the whole marathon I WILL finish) ... and told a few friends I was considering deferring (to which they also said no way girl you’ve got this...) and ... I think they were right! I just have to believe in myself for a change. But oh boy did it feel good to RUN again today! I’ve been on lots of ‘walking’ lately because before Christmas some hill sprints aggravated my ankle, to the point I was barely walking. Which really got me down and doubting my own abilities. Under careful guidance we are bringing running back in, and ahhh I love it! I know I can’t do it forever but it makes me feel all happy inside (especially after a killer bike). So safe to say, I feel like I’m getting back on track. I had A minor hiccup ... probably not the last one. But each time hopefully I get better at dealing with them.
Well this sums up today’s session. Mummy wrecked ... Charlotte outriding me - to be fair she has no resistance 😂 Felt good to be back on the bike. I’ve been putting it off. I haven’t had any groove. really all there is to say is I did it. After being forced into it by the almost 7 year old... I did it. I smiled. I laughed. But I did it. It’s a start. Time to get back in the game. I’m not promising I am back 100%, but what I do know is I’m back ticking off sessions, and giving them a good crack. As coach said yesterday, I’m giving all I have. Some days that’s more than others. But I give everything I can in every session. Fresh start today. First box I’ve ticked in a while. Thanks to the 7yo for kicking mummy’s butt today 😂 I needed it.
Let’s talk about today. Today I didn’t want to do my ride. I woke up all ready to get on the road, and it was rainy, miserable, I’m starting to miss being home, I’m starting to feel tired of holidays. So to say my motivation to do two hours on the windtrainer when I realised that road riding was off the cards was low, is an understatement. But, I sucked it up, and got on. Finishing 78km in the designated 120 mins, remaining in zone 2 and keeping cadence consistent. Sounds easy right?! 🤦🏻♀️ Once I jumped off my first thought was thank f*ck that’s done! But, scrolling Facebook, my memories reminded me that this time, one year ago, I was a week and a half shy of surgery #5 on my ankle. I was walking with a broken screw inside the left joint - no longer holding tib-fib together as it should’ve been. I was battling chronic pain and swelling. So today, despite lack of motivation, I am thankful that I can ride my bike at all. I’m thankful my legs, despite being the part of my body I am the absolute most self conscious about, so much so that this is the FIRST summer I’ve worn shorts above the knee in YEARS, do what I ask and continue to push my limits even when I’m mentally spent. The scars have faded (you can just see one in this photo) but it will always be a reminder of where I’ve been, and where I am now. So I may be short, curvy and not your stereotypical ‘triathlete’, but, I’m damn proud of the way I have healed, and of my rehab journey. It’s been bloody hard work, and on days like today, it’s a nice reminder that the hard work is slowly paying off. My legs are strong. I am strong. It’s time to embrace that 🙌🏻