Clips from legs tonight @irongrindeptx
Decided to upload these as a point to make about how much the mental part plays a role in training.
The first clip came after a set of 455 for two. As soon as I unracked the 315, my mind went haywire.
“This weight is going to crush me.”
“My knees are gonna buckle.”
“There’s no way I can do this after that last set.”
“Rack it. Rack it now.”
Thus, my body followed suit. You see me shake my head at myself because I knew I shouldn’t be thinking that way, yet, there it was.
Form began to get shaky, putting my lower back at an awkward position on the 3rd rep, that’s why you see me tap my belt after I rack it.
I was ready to call it a session. But I knew I couldn’t. That’d make me a failure, in my eyes. I grade every training session I do, and I couldn’t leave the gym with an F. I put it in my head that if I didn’t give it another go, my family doesn’t eat for a month. My girl doesn’t get the life she deserves.
And its gonna be all my fault.
So I laced up my straps for another set. And the rest was history.
Mindset. Is. Everything.
I've been single for quite some time and the first thing I wanted to do was run back to an unhealthy toxic relationship that broke me to the core of my being. Why? Because it was familiar and the fear of being alone was worse than the fear of being in a toxic environment. This was a little over four years ago. However, when I truly learned to be by myself, I allowed myself to go through all the stages of grief (denial, anger, bargaining, depression and finally acceptance) I have grown to love, honor, forgive, and accept myself exactly as I AM. I'm not perfect but I truly believe I'm living my best life. How this chapter plays out is not my concern, I will however, awaken to the unlimited possibilities that present themselves to me and let go of how or what kind of package the UNIVERSE chooses to wrap it in.
Namaste 🙏 .
Keep dreaming, Keep moving, keep creating .
Don’t stop ever, even when others say it’s OK. Because you just might come out on top! I had plans to make it to one of the top spots, it happened just not the way I had planned!
Thank you to @majesticcycling putting on Victorville RR & Crit. A great and deceptively hard RR. #Cold and #windy#norain just the way a bike race should be. Crazy Hard.. I had mechanical on 1st lap. Dropped seatpost. Did 1st lap standing whole time. Ouch. Finally got Allen key raised seatpost and proceeded to chase solo the entire race.
Sure I wanted to quit, it hurt, it was cold, it was boring windy as hell and I was disappointed in myself, I felt I could ride in that breakaway oh well #adaptandovercome.
Finally @3 laps to go 2 man breakaway catches me, great I’m a whole 6 miles down now! But I train hard, all the pain, the burning agony and cold are temporary, quitting last forever.
Finally the Moto bike official pulls up to me and says hey you can finish on the same lap and you’re the only 40+ rider, I’ll count you so you can just get this over with! he watched me the whole race just churning solo. I thanked him, I just rode off the back, of chase group. When it came to the last lap, The first Chase group that I was with started playing the cat and mouse games and I just pulled off and rode hard solo to finish the race I was compelled and obligated to do one more lap that I was down. I’m the last man standing so I got to do it right. After I finished my solo last lap the official said to me “hey you’re a real man you could’ve finished on the same lap and it would’ve counted“. I said thx. But if I was the only 40+ rider and I got the chicken dinner...well I was going to put in just as much hard work or more as everybody else did I’m in no short change hero. #painistemporary#teariot#gohardorgohome#hitsquad#compexusa#rudyproject#kogel#gq-6 #forzetri#liveyourfitness#fitterlives#bonkbreaker#canyonbikes@sariolcycling
Living your best life
I hear it so much, "I want to be the best person I can be", people have all these goals. They go through life worrying about their goals and achieving them, but they put their physical wellbeing to the wayside. I hate that, I really do, I hate the excuses, the complaining and the cheating. ▪
My Dad was one of the hardest workers I've ever known and that hard work carried him through every aspect of his life, but one. His physical health, he had battled Obesity and heart problems most of his life. He didn't get blood work, didn't go to the hospital and cheated his way through losing weight. He took Diaretics, weight loss shakes and abused his body. He died from a heart attack, his heart was weak from how much strain it was under from losing and gaining weight so many times through out his life.
I don't want anyone to have to deal with this, its a serious thing. And more often than not I will not be your friend or talk to you if you don't care about your body enough to not be a healthier person. I could care less if you go to the gym, but eating fast food all the time because it "cheaper" and "easier" than cooking and eating good food. Is no excuse, you should know that if you don't take care of your body, your body will take care of you, by getting rid of you.